Often life is hard, but God is always good

Screen Shot 2016-05-22 at 12.12.01 PMThe Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV

I lay back on the hospital bed, trying not to concentrate on my thirst, my hunger, my pain, or my fear. In just an hour or so, the operating room would be ready for me – an add-on surgery patient at the end of the day. After 24 hours of fasting and waiting I would be wheeled in to have my foot opened up toe to ankle for the second time in a week, to fix bones that had popped apart.

As I prayed through the swirl of physical and emotional sensations, I found these words of contrition formed in my mind and I whispered: “Please forgive me for swimming in the shallow end, Lord.”

My personal life wasn’t perfectly smooth, but enough had been going right that I didn’t exercise much faith muscle in my daily activities or decisions. I just did it, as the Nike commercial commands, and then thanked God for the results.

Now, when the fear and pain swelled up into mountainous proportions, I was left with atrophied faith to help me. But I found God’s kindness for my spiritual condition, even as the tears leaked from my eyes and coursed backwards into my ears, I heard His comforting words: “I am with you, even when you are weak.”

This just happened last month. I am still laid up with my foot in a cast and pain and depressive thoughts continue to be my daily companions. Yet, I know that I when I was submerged in the deep end, I came out with a better understanding of the faithfulness of God to be with me, no matter whether I am strong or not.

 

 

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Comments on: "Swimming in the Shallow End" (5)

  1. God is definitely with you…and He has good, amazing and loving thoughts towards you at all times…I pray those thoughts, His truth, will become louder and more constant than any depressive ones.

    • “louder and more constant” is a great way to phrase it! Yes and Amen! Illness and injury are naturally depressing and we surely need the Lord to help at these times. I hope when I am up and about – all recovered that I remember to reach out to the sick!

  2. This is so well written Laure, praying this healing time will pass soon!! God bless you and your words to encourage others.

    • Thank you, Wendy! So often healing is happening invisibly and it’s hard to keep the faith! I want to blog on Romans 12:12 – but feel I need to get more perspective before I write something that doesn’t do justice to the subject of pain.

      • Looking forward to that, yes God is working behind the scenes in the same way healing takes place in our physical bodies! I will be faithful in prayer for you.

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